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1st Heavy Rain of 2009

Nagmumuni-muni ako nung narinig ko na ang lakas ng ulan

natuwa naman ako....
bigla ko naalala..it was 3 years ago yung last na ligo ko sa ulan with my sister...

ang saya nun..kahit na tinatawag na kami ng tatay namin kasi ang tagal na namin nakakababad sa ulan...

those were the days na parang wala kang problema..para kang bata na naglalaro lang sa ulan...how I wish I can feel that way again...

I know I should not worry and worrying doesn't help me..but still things that bothers me really worry me a lot...

There are lot of things that I want to open up..share things that I worry about..but I can't...I just can't....it seems that there is no one willing to help me...there is no one to listen to my cries...there is no one who can understand me....but ME... MYSELF...

There are things I wish I could do...and hope I could do....but very impossible to happen...

our master piece

***the updated version

survey....

Be honest no matter what....

Who were your latest 3 inbox texts from?

♠ gabs, mark and anjoe

Where was your default pic taken?

♠ sa mang inasal (MOA)

What's your middle name?

♠ Vestido

Your current relationship status?

♠ single...

Does your crush like you back?

♠ i don't know

What is your current mood?

♠ sleepy and lonely (ako lang mag isa dito sa bahay)

What's your mom's name?

♠ Jelyn

What is the color of your shirt the you are wearing right now?

♠ white

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?

♠ of course...

Have a crazy side?

♠ yup...always...hahaha

Ever had a near death experience?

♠ wala pa..and I pray wala ako ma experience....

What is something you do a lot?

♠ sleeping!!!!

Angry at anyone?

♠ nope....i don't hold grudges...thats bad

Do you wanna see somebody right Now?

♠ yup...madami....

Do you like drama?

♠ kindda...

When was the last time you cried?

♠ last week lang ata

Who would you do anything for someone?

♠for good sake...yes

Who is your hero?

♠my one only....JESUS

What is the one thing you notice first with the opposite sex?

♠ eyes and the amazing smile..

What's your biggest secret?

♠ang kulet...secret nga eh...

Where is your ex?

♠ yaan nyo na kung asan na sila...

Would you ever take him/her back?

♠ not anymore...

Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?

♠ if I still have time...its most spent in sleeping...

What are you eating or drinking at the moment?

♠ nothing

Do you speak any other languages?

♠ Filipino and English only

Whats your favorite smell?

♠ nakalimutan ko na yung pabango nung ex ko nun...yun yung gusto kong smell....

Describe your life.

♠ happy!!!!

Have you ever kissed in the rain?

♠ not yet...but..I wanna try that...hahahaha

Do you like the rain?

♠ yes

What are you thinking about right now?

♠ answers to this questions

What should you be doing right now?

♠sleeping hahaha

What is your favorite memory?

♠ times that I learned a very important lesson...at mga tinuturo ni Adda sa training namin nang may masagot ako sa assessment

What are you listening to?

♠ bubbly

Who was the last person you told I love you ?

♠ wala pa....ulet

Do you act differently around the person you like?

♠ kinda..minsan pa cute

What is your natural hair color?

♠ black

Who was the last person to make you smile?

♠ my friends...

ang tinuring kong pamilya....

For the past 1 year and 4 months sila ang naging pamilya ko. May mga bagay man na di kami magkakasundo still mahal ko pa din sila....

Madami akong ma mi miss...ma mi miss ko ang pang-aaway ni Eiffel (na mula nung nawala si Tentay ako na laging inaaway)...ma mi miss ko ang pag e-edit ni Jham sa blog ko...ang pang aasar nila Sir Rey, Kuya Marvin, Sherwin, Lawrence, Ernani, Ian at Jeff at paminsan minsa ni JM...ma mi miss ko ang pananakot ni Sir Erwin sa akin ng cutter nya...ma mi miss ko ang pag suntok sa akin ni Sir JR na para kong punching bag...ma mi miss ko ang walang ka kwenta kwentang mga sagot ni Sunday (hehehe)...ma mi miss ko ang tawa ni Grace at ang kanyang mga simpleng hirit...ma mi miss ko ang bonding at heart to heart talk namin nila Anne at ni Eder...ma mi miss ko ang MYTP (make your trainer proud) na si Macy...si Grecia at si Edz kahit na kasama ko sila sa bahay ma mi miss ko din yung bonding namin pag break....

Kahit wala na sila Cindy, Tere, Rizza at Tentay ma mi miss ko din sila....magkikita kita din tayo sa finals...

Mahirap...pero kailangan...bakit ako umalis at iniwan ang mga kaibigan ko....kailangan ko gawin ang mga dapat kong gawin...maraming plano ang Lord sa akin...at di ko yun magagawa kung di ako mag sa sacrifice...


***Guys....eto tatandaan nyo....nagpapasalamat ako sa mga panahon na magkakasama tayo...minsan pamatay trip man ako kasi di ako sumasali sa mga gimiks nyo...mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat...our memories will always stay in my heart...wala kayong katulad...

eto na nga po.....

Goodbye.......






Salamat sa lahat....

The Fern and the Bamboo (this post is dedicated to Rizza)

One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality....I wanted to quit my life.I went to the woods to have one last talk with God."God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me. "Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?" "Yes", I replied. "When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water."

The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. "In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. The same in year four. " Then in the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant. But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, You have actually been growing roots? I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you. "Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful. "Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high" "How high should I rise?" I asked. "How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return. "As high as it can?" I questioned. "Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest, realizing that God will never give up on me. And He will never give up on you.Never regret a day in your life. Good days give you happiness; Bad days give you experiences; Both are essential to life.

feelings....emotions...

loneliness, sad from being alone

sadness, causing or associated with grief or unhappiness

frustration, a deep chronic sense or state of insecurity and dissatisfaction arising from unresolved problems or unfulfilled needs


waaaahhhh...yoko maramdaman yan......