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how to heal a broken heart...

I'm not into giving you tips on how to heal a broken heart. I just want to vent out what I feel and the things I did to heal my broken heart because of relying to myself only (relying on my own wisdom, understanding and own feelings)

For the past 3 relationships that I had, I always commit the same mistakes..in every relationship it seems that I'm not learning the lessons that are really common in every relationship that I had. I do sometimes reason out that "Im only human, I do commit mistakes". But I am wrong... I am human I really do mistakes...but I also have God that always get hurt everytime I commit mistakes and also hurt that He is seeing me having a broken heart.

In every relationship that I had, I always setting up my standards and limitations...everything seems perfect at first. But after few months everything is becoming a mess. There are arguments and me left crying. And eventually will end up in break ups...

In every break ups I end up asking myself a lot of questions like: "What is it this time?", "naging imature na naman ba ako?", "am I being selfish?" and a lot more...

Even though I was able to answer those questions...still the past relationships were not successful. And that brings me back to ask God after my 3rd and last relationship 3 years ago.

I got soooo many amazing answer that He can only give me.

I John 4: 19
God’s love is the source of all human love. It is not natural for man to love God. We love Him because He first loved us.

He lead me back in loving Him more than the man that I am with. The reason why those relationships are not successful was I was too focused on how to keep my partner rather than focusing on how both of us will grow our relationship with Him and let Him be the author of our life.

After 2 years of bitterness and hatred because of the pain that caused me. The Lord helped me (as He always did) to make me whole once again. He helped me to be better or even the best future wife for my future husband. The heart that once was broken in a million pieces is now whole and I let God hold it for me and let Him hold the pen that once was mine. I let Him write my love story...I know He is now writing a beautiful tale for me that will lead me to a "happily ever after" ending because He is the one writing my love story and I know He wants to write the BEST love story for me.

I still commit mistakes...but in every mistakes there is the wisdom of the Lord and His loving arms that carry me and His unconditional love that never fails to forgive me. But this time in every mistake that I made there is the learning not to commit the same mistake again (and do it all over again)

I'm still waiting for the love of my life, my prince, my groom...I know he's just here wandering the earth and waiting for me...

I've been always praying for him that the Lord also teaching Him the things that I'm also learning as I'm running my race to glorify God. I know the Lord has the perfect plan on when and how we will meet...He is always telling me these things: "PATIENCE MY CHILD....PATIENCE".

happiness....

Last Wednesday morning, right after our shift we decided to have our bonding session since we do not have

work that night...

Ayun kanta kung kanta ang drama.....

anjoe, leo, me, woah,

paolo (i call him bunso) and bianca

me and leo

survey....

Be honest no matter what....

Who were your latest 3 inbox texts from?

♠ gabs, mark and anjoe

Where was your default pic taken?

♠ sa mang inasal (MOA)

What's your middle name?

♠ Vestido

Your current relationship status?

♠ single...

Does your crush like you back?

♠ i don't know

What is your current mood?

♠ sleepy and lonely (ako lang mag isa dito sa bahay)

What's your mom's name?

♠ Jelyn

What is the color of your shirt the you are wearing right now?

♠ white

If you could go back in time and change something, would you?

♠ of course...

Have a crazy side?

♠ yup...always...hahaha

Ever had a near death experience?

♠ wala pa..and I pray wala ako ma experience....

What is something you do a lot?

♠ sleeping!!!!

Angry at anyone?

♠ nope....i don't hold grudges...thats bad

Do you wanna see somebody right Now?

♠ yup...madami....

Do you like drama?

♠ kindda...

When was the last time you cried?

♠ last week lang ata

Who would you do anything for someone?

♠for good sake...yes

Who is your hero?

♠my one only....JESUS

What is the one thing you notice first with the opposite sex?

♠ eyes and the amazing smile..

What's your biggest secret?

♠ang kulet...secret nga eh...

Where is your ex?

♠ yaan nyo na kung asan na sila...

Would you ever take him/her back?

♠ not anymore...

Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?

♠ if I still have time...its most spent in sleeping...

What are you eating or drinking at the moment?

♠ nothing

Do you speak any other languages?

♠ Filipino and English only

Whats your favorite smell?

♠ nakalimutan ko na yung pabango nung ex ko nun...yun yung gusto kong smell....

Describe your life.

♠ happy!!!!

Have you ever kissed in the rain?

♠ not yet...but..I wanna try that...hahahaha

Do you like the rain?

♠ yes

What are you thinking about right now?

♠ answers to this questions

What should you be doing right now?

♠sleeping hahaha

What is your favorite memory?

♠ times that I learned a very important lesson...at mga tinuturo ni Adda sa training namin nang may masagot ako sa assessment

What are you listening to?

♠ bubbly

Who was the last person you told I love you ?

♠ wala pa....ulet

Do you act differently around the person you like?

♠ kinda..minsan pa cute

What is your natural hair color?

♠ black

Who was the last person to make you smile?

♠ my friends...

my new environment....

Last Sept 15 nung nag start ako sa e-telecare..iniwan ang Allsec Tech at nakipag sapalaran...tumayo sa sariling paa at nag desisyon ng di nagpapa impluwensya sa iba...natakot sa 1st day kasi wala akong kakilala...

Sa pag alis ko sa Allsec di naman ibig sabihin na iniwan ko din ang mga kaibigan at pamilyang nabuo sa loob ng mahigit isang taon. Madami ako natutunan, mga kalokohan at samahan...na sa Allsec/KBI lang ang mayroon...babalik balikan ko ang mga masasayang araw na yun....

Pero katulad nga ng sinasabi ko...kailangan mag sakripisyo para sa ikabubuti...di mo mararating ang isang bagay kung di mo susubukan...at yun ang ginawa ko...

Madami akong nadinig (i'm sure mababasa nila toh) minsan naiinis ako sa mga sinasabi nila na bakit dyan pa...hindi ako dadalhin ng Lord dito kung walang dahilan...I know God has a perfect plan for me...hindi man maganda sa paningin ng iba..maganda yun sa paningin Nya...salamat din kasi alam kong concern lang kayo sa akin...eto siguro ang way ng Lord para "tumatag ang mga buto ko"

Sa ngayon...masaya ako sa mga bagong kaibigan, bagong environment, bagong office, bagong pantry at bagong mga bossing...

Gaya ng ginawa ko sa KBI nung bago pa ko, gagawin kong masaya ang bawat araw na nandito ako...treasure every single moment with new friends...

ang tinuring kong pamilya....

For the past 1 year and 4 months sila ang naging pamilya ko. May mga bagay man na di kami magkakasundo still mahal ko pa din sila....

Madami akong ma mi miss...ma mi miss ko ang pang-aaway ni Eiffel (na mula nung nawala si Tentay ako na laging inaaway)...ma mi miss ko ang pag e-edit ni Jham sa blog ko...ang pang aasar nila Sir Rey, Kuya Marvin, Sherwin, Lawrence, Ernani, Ian at Jeff at paminsan minsa ni JM...ma mi miss ko ang pananakot ni Sir Erwin sa akin ng cutter nya...ma mi miss ko ang pag suntok sa akin ni Sir JR na para kong punching bag...ma mi miss ko ang walang ka kwenta kwentang mga sagot ni Sunday (hehehe)...ma mi miss ko ang tawa ni Grace at ang kanyang mga simpleng hirit...ma mi miss ko ang bonding at heart to heart talk namin nila Anne at ni Eder...ma mi miss ko ang MYTP (make your trainer proud) na si Macy...si Grecia at si Edz kahit na kasama ko sila sa bahay ma mi miss ko din yung bonding namin pag break....

Kahit wala na sila Cindy, Tere, Rizza at Tentay ma mi miss ko din sila....magkikita kita din tayo sa finals...

Mahirap...pero kailangan...bakit ako umalis at iniwan ang mga kaibigan ko....kailangan ko gawin ang mga dapat kong gawin...maraming plano ang Lord sa akin...at di ko yun magagawa kung di ako mag sa sacrifice...


***Guys....eto tatandaan nyo....nagpapasalamat ako sa mga panahon na magkakasama tayo...minsan pamatay trip man ako kasi di ako sumasali sa mga gimiks nyo...mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat...our memories will always stay in my heart...wala kayong katulad...

eto na....

malapit na....

ma mi miss ko ang pamilya ko dito...

pero kailangan ko tong gawin...

I don't wanna say goodbye...

but see you later guys!!!!

rest mode...

Pasensya na....

wala pa ko maisip na matinong post ngayon....

at kasalukuyang busy ako sa panibagong yugto

ng buhay ko.....

I'll update my blog soon....